i need motivation

i need motivation to start study....i duno what had happened to me, i have no motivation to start study...2moro is my midterm test, but i never study at all...i never work on it and wish to get a better result. this sem, i ponteng quite a lot..2classes when cny and come back late after holiday and cny....after that, when i am sleepy and dun12 wake up, i ponteng again...this sem i really erm dim, i wish i can tune my mode to study mode, and dun always peh har peh har like that.........haih.......i think i really need god to help me....T.T

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i think i have quite a long time never update my status, my post..and my blog....

this never meant that never happen to me, so that i can save my energy and never update anything...actually there are too much of things to say, but i duno how i gonna start it....thats why i keep it....^^

2nd year is a tough year, 1st sem is lengah lengah oli...syok syok, then played alot..when 2nd sem, i oli feel the stress is coming to me....sien lah..gonna busy of sciencetech things, and gonna study, obviously i am more interested to do my society things...^^....feel better than sit in class, but never listen any word from lecturers...jz feel that, why local uni lecturer are so cha sui....??i think they are good in their knowledge..but this is not meant that they are good in teacher....they are PM, Dr....but, their teaching skilllll.....no eye see ah!!T.T....

this sem, i oli played badminton for 4hours oli..why so less????coz of busy, busy and busy....time is not suitable, not match and lazy to play(will i??)....actually jz no time to play......always sit in front of pc and click click....for sure finger can keep fit...bt my spare tire are going bigger and bigger...after the final..i should do more exercise........^^...if not, i really can be a good chef..coz of my stomach look like a good chef...haha...

will have a longer sem break at this sem..but it is quite busy...and stressful..coz of an activity that i have no confident to make it done...i am thinking why i want to hold a such important event, but i have no skill to do so??.....i need someone to help me..someone that are good, that are helpful........but till now, not much wish to help me...T.T...sad....

now is midnite of monday...2moro got class!!!!!!!!!!!!!sien ah!!

wrong decision

erm.....jz feel very no mood..and obviously, i made a very wrong decision......

i promise my fren for a trip, it is going to johor bahru, Utm...go there to visit my fren that going to have a big show at there....erm, actually my purpose going there, i beliv it is not for him....jz think that patrick is going, and feel less chance with this gang..thats why i spend my time with them....

why i said it is a wrong decision?i feel that this trip have no planning, or can say that is bad planning..and i very not satisfied....i might not be a good planner, but i think i am better than him....

actually i jz thining that, why i want to spend so much and go for the trip??and my purpose is not to visit my fren? am i should save up the money for my target racket, my shoes and with my fren??but not waste like that....

but since i ady promise, i think i have no choice now....

i am thinking..what if 2moro i cant wake up??mayb i will jz waste my bus ticket tat cost around 60++, but i can save up more than 150.......

erm...i will let my mind decide it....

home...

finally i reach my home.....

yesterday took a few hours flight from KK to KL...then bus to kl sentral....and my parents get me there...

but then, yesterday nite, it is really call midnite, and make my parents need drive at late nite to find me at kl sentral, if can...i think i better take taxi....more convenient, alto it is more expensive......this make my parents cant sleep early like normally.....haih, really sorry to my parents...

next time i should take earlier flight..so i can gao dim my things...and nonid mafan other ppl......

erm...1st day at home...feel surprise coz my home can online....it is in streamyx zone....haha, can online..i think is better than ntg to do.....

erm....thinking what to do in this coming holiday, b4 coming back, there are a lot of things wish to do...but afta reaching home...feel like sien doing anything....^^

??????

question marks is my new home.....but then, why i put so many question marks????

actually i jz feel that, there is lots of question marks inside and outside my head....

erm...no answer, or mayb i duno the answer....

actually, whats my feeling, i oso duno...example like now..

i should study my kaedah physic....but duno why, jz on facebook...but ntg new to see...

play games??....like not really interested....

haih, duno is it last paper, so i feel like no mood to study.....

haih....duno lah, dun wanna study..but have to study oso....dun hope to regret when seeing my results....

this is my new home.....

duno why...suddenly have a feeling to move out....

and, duno why..i choose here to bertapak.....mayb lots of fren is using this..

but....nvm, jz registered,...so, have to get used at here....