i need motivation

i need motivation to start study....i duno what had happened to me, i have no motivation to start study...2moro is my midterm test, but i never study at all...i never work on it and wish to get a better result. this sem, i ponteng quite a lot..2classes when cny and come back late after holiday and cny....after that, when i am sleepy and dun12 wake up, i ponteng again...this sem i really erm dim, i wish i can tune my mode to study mode, and dun always peh har peh har like that.........haih.......i think i really need god to help me....T.T

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i think i have quite a long time never update my status, my post..and my blog....

this never meant that never happen to me, so that i can save my energy and never update anything...actually there are too much of things to say, but i duno how i gonna start it....thats why i keep it....^^

2nd year is a tough year, 1st sem is lengah lengah oli...syok syok, then played alot..when 2nd sem, i oli feel the stress is coming to me....sien lah..gonna busy of sciencetech things, and gonna study, obviously i am more interested to do my society things...^^....feel better than sit in class, but never listen any word from lecturers...jz feel that, why local uni lecturer are so cha sui....??i think they are good in their knowledge..but this is not meant that they are good in teacher....they are PM, Dr....but, their teaching skilllll.....no eye see ah!!T.T....

this sem, i oli played badminton for 4hours oli..why so less????coz of busy, busy and busy....time is not suitable, not match and lazy to play(will i??)....actually jz no time to play......always sit in front of pc and click click....for sure finger can keep fit...bt my spare tire are going bigger and bigger...after the final..i should do more exercise........^^...if not, i really can be a good chef..coz of my stomach look like a good chef...haha...

will have a longer sem break at this sem..but it is quite busy...and stressful..coz of an activity that i have no confident to make it done...i am thinking why i want to hold a such important event, but i have no skill to do so??.....i need someone to help me..someone that are good, that are helpful........but till now, not much wish to help me...T.T...sad....

now is midnite of monday...2moro got class!!!!!!!!!!!!!sien ah!!